Back at square one

I'm basically back where I started. I'm not watching my diet, I'm not exercising, I haven't used my weights this week at all. I'm a little disappointed in myself. It wouldn't surprise me if I've put on more weight this week. I'm certainly feeling more bloated than I have in a while
This seems to be how I am, I have good weeks and bad weeks, weeks where I seem to have lots of energy and other weeks where I don't. I've never been able to figure out why and perhaps I'll never know. 
I still get a little bit of vertigo every now and then but it is getting better and at least my wife has said that she doesn't have it anymore.
Most of the seedlings that I was trying to grow never even sprouted, the couple that did never even did anything, one of them ended up being a weed and one of the rocket seeds that sprouted basically went straight to flower. I think I have one chilli plant that might survive but I can't eat chillies as they upset my guts too much. I did manage to mow the lawn when I got home from work yesterday, so at least that's done and the yard looks nice.
I'm not on call for the next 6 days so I'm going to relax and probably have a few beers over the weekend. I go back on call next week for two weeks so I'll be on call up to and including Boxing Day, but after that I won't be back on call until early January. I've got from the 20th of December through til the 7th of Jan off so I'm hoping that I can start the new year in a positive way and start getting things back on track properly as I think I need a holiday to reset myself.

Bomber
giving in for now, maybe, don't know