This last week or two has been a tough one. I've basically given up on dieting and I'm fighting with my son a lot. I also feel pretty exhausted, so it could all be tied together.
I do struggle with my kids at times, I'm sure most if not all parents do struggle from time to time, but I just worry that I'm screwing them up or will end up with them not wanting to be around me as they get older.
My son is really just like me, so we bump heads all the time, it drives my wife crazy and my daughter ends up going to her room to get away from the noise. I do try and keep my cal, but my son just somehow manages to push all my buttons and unleashes a part of me that I'm not proud of.
I'm going to have to try harder with controlling myself and not letting my son get under my skin so much. I do love both my children very much.
Diet wise, I've had the shake a couple of times during the week but if I'm honest, breakfast was never really the problem. It's the snacking before and after dinner and throughout the weekend that really does me in. I was really good for a couple of weeks, but it has all basically fallen over again. I need to focus on doing better with that too.
I was about to say that I'd done better with my alcohol intake, but now that I think about it, I haven't done that great there either. I had that bottle of bourbon which I ended up having two or three bourbon and cokes most evenings. Then last weekend I bought a six pack of beer. The only reason I've not had anything to drink this weekend is because I'm on call for work, I would have bought another six pack on Friday just gone if I wasn't on call.
This yoyo that I've got going up and down for years is getting tiring, a long time ago I heard someone way something like "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired" and that's just how I feel.
Bomber
possibly burnt out.
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